Dearest readers, I’d like to thank all of you for being loyal visitors to The Lazy Blogger. 7000 over visitors in the past year, that’s about averagely 20 a day, which is satisfying. However, all good things have to come to an end, don’t they? I’ve decided not to continue blogging, for the time being, at least. I’ve seem to lost the inspiration and passion that I used to have.
For my final post, I’d like to share a dream I had.
Thank you once again for reading this blog.
There’s Jack, a fresh faced 18 year-old. His life was kinda messy. Having been into several short, unsuccessful relationships and just scored brilliantly in his exam, he’s enrolled into something he despises, and just got dumped by his girlfriend from the school across the street. Feeling depressed and unmotivated, he met this girl in his class, Curry.
Curry, she’s from somewhere far, and it’s her first time in the big city. She lost her mother to cancer at the age of 11, and being an orphan, had to live with her two aunts. She was currently seeing someone at that time, however.
Jack and Curry became closer as each day passes by, and to Jack, no one has ever made him feel in such a special way before. He vowed to be with Curry, and was determined to take this relationship seriously. Curry eventually left her current boyfriend for Jack.
Their relationship at the early stage was beyond phenomenal. To Curry, having lost the most important person in her life at such an early age, and lacking the love and attention of her parents, she truly cherished Jack and deeply loved him with all her heart. Touched by Jack’s love, tears flowed on their first night together. To Jack, she was the best thing that could ever happen. Being stuck in the depression he was in, Curry was a ray of light at the end of the tunnel, and she was the only person who could truly open up his heart.
However, their relationship wasn’t all plain sailing. Both Jack and Curry are fiery, stubborn creatures. Arguments got more and more frequent. Jack loved Curry with all his heart. But Jack wasn’t perfect. In fact, he was far from it. At times, he could be pretty immature, easily jealous, and his greatest flaw, his temper, proved to be the sharpest thorn in the relationship.
Despite being on the receiving end of Jack’s frequent temper and mood swings, Curry stood by him every single time. Deep in her heart, there’s more good than bad in Jack. She knew no one will ever love her more than Jack does. But she never stopped praying that Jack would change eventually. The numerous fights had taken a toll on her poor heart, and she had shed too many a tear in the relationship. But she still loved Jack like it was the first day they were together.
Jack, meanwhile was in a dilemma. He loved Curry, and his heart ached when he knows he’s hurting her. He’d tried countless of ways to change, but he found it so difficult. All he wanted was to make Curry happy.
Things took a turn for the worse when there was another guy in the picture. Lenny, was a like a dream come true. Rich, strikingly handsome and eligible, he had fallen for Curry. Immediately, Jack was crestfallen. How could he possible compete with Lenny? His confidence took a nosedive, and instead of fighting for Curry, his treatment towards her was getting worse.
Because of the way Jack is treating her, and due to Lenny’s persistent advances, Curry admitted to having a crush on Lenny. But she had never forgotten what Jack had done for her all these while, and her feelings towards Jack were still strong. In a teary confession to Jack, she confessed the ‘betrayal’ in her heart. After a heart moving apology, she told Jack that he was all there is in her heart, and that Jack is the only person she wants to be with, but she knows that fate was in Jack’s hands, not hers.
Jack thought about it long and hard. Being a sensitive person, he was hurt that Curry had some feelings towards Lenny. But he couldn’t bear the thought of not being with Curry. In an unprecedented move, he chose to remain with her. But the wounds from 2 months of heartache couldn’t heal so soon for Jack and Curry.
The obstacles didn’t end there. Being arguably the most popular and controversial couple in their institution, they caused huge uproar when Jack decided to challenge the efforts made by certain quarters to split them, and took his case to the principal. This had caused the staffroom to split into two sides. One that supported them and one that didn’t.
With already so much swirling around them, the people that Jack and Curry needed the most, turned against them. A scandal broke about Jack’s sex life with Curry and his other ‘misdemeanours’ with other girls. Apparently, one of Curry’s best friends had gotten jealous, and fabricated stories to try to split them up. In reality, the lies only served to make them stronger than ever.
School finally ended, and Jack and Curry relished their freedom. And during the free time they had, took up several part time jobs together. However, their future now remained uncertain. The thought of being separated brought a huge sense of insecurity and anxiety towards Curry. They were simply inseparable.
So, it was a huge relief that both of them manage to continue their tertiary education in the same city. However, it would be the first time that Jack and Curry would undertake something apart. From seeing each other almost every day, they now saw each other less and less frequently. Being busy with their respective classes didn’t help either. But it proved to be a blessing initially, as the arguments and fights decreased, and the lack of seeing each other made both Jack and Curry miss each other even more.
But it was the beginning of the end.
There was a guy in college, Andrew who was courting Curry. He had asked her out every day, and being new, Curry had not made many friends yet, so she agreed to it. Jack, of course, was unhappy about it but had hidden his unhappiness away from Curry. He didn’t want to let Curry think that he was a controlling, possessive boyfriend. He was devastated, but he had started thinking.
Jack loved Curry with all his heart, more than anything else in this world, and he’d do anything to make her happy. He knows that being alone in this world, he was all she had. There was excruciating pain when he thought about life without her. But that pain, couldn’t compare to the pain he feels when he continues to hurt her with their differences, with his mood swings, with his temper. He was frustrated that he could never give everything she needed. The breakup would be painful for Curry too, Jack knows. But he was sure, in the long run, Andrew could make her happier than he could ever do. He was sure, Curry would grow to love him. Jack wasn’t sure, though, that he would ever learn to love another again. But as long as he knows Curry will be happy, he’s willing to be unselfish.
And so, on the 30th of August 2007, on their 25th month together, Jack reluctantly left Curry. He’d rather take the suffering, and make sure that in the long run, Curry would be happy, even if it meant that he wouldn’t.
