Reflections

And so, in a blink of an eye, semester 2 ended. I know I've said a few times that I missed Sem 1, and that Sem 2 felt like an anti-climax. But I guess overall, I had a good time. True, it was different, with the formation of NATO, we hang out more as a large group (which has its own pros and cons). Instead of hanging out with Lene, Xuan, Elizabeth, I spent more time this sem with Aaron, SK, Xin Fei... Instead of Starbucks, it was FTZ, Pyramid. Instead of arriving everyday at SS15 to hope there's a space in front of Xuan's house and risk my car being summoned, I arrive everyday hoping there's a space in front of SK's house, and risking my car being scratched. Instead of eating at Asia Cafe, we now eat at H20..

The subjects were of course tougher. I enjoyed studying under Ms. Catherine in Law, and I retract calling Malar a bitch, for despite her incompetence, self-denial, arrogance, lame jokes and starting a Cold War in our class, she made it up to me at the very last moment.

There were many firsts too. I went clubbing for the first time, I watched a concert for the first time, I gambled at a casino for the first time, I studied till 4am at McDs for the first time. All wonderful experiences, all wouldn't be possible without NATO-rians (and without a certain Indonesian too).

At the end of semester 2, I'd already be single for 9 months, which would be the longest since 2003. I guess the thrill of being single is slowly fading off. But sometimes I tend to wonder, have I lost the ability to love again.

I've realised I've been overzealous at times, and in that process, hurt and disappoint a few people who had been great to me, and were more than willing to be there when I was down. I made promises that I never fulfilled. I make appointments and never show up, I've neglected a few people and I know I wasn't like this before. But it wasn't intentional, and I'm truly sorry. When the opportunity arises, I promise to make it up.